The Word is Out

Hello again,

Well, I've done it. I created a group on Facebook an sent an invitation to all of my listed friends and family explaining what I'm about to do. No turning back. This is the first time in my life that I've been so honest and open about my weight. Arrgggghh.

I felt a bit weird right before sending out the invite, kind of like I use to feel right before taking a final exam and to be honest, i sat on it for a bit...the doubts started creeping in. Did I really want to share this with everyone? Almost everyone I know will know how much I weigh and how weak I am when it comes to my struggles with food.

I feel somewhat vulnerable right now but also, excited and eager to get this started. I already feel like I have to do really well and that works for me, I like the pressure.

As I sit here typing, at 2:37 in the morning, I am enjoying a nice cold Heineken, which I know will be my last for at least the next 6 months or so. It's so good!!! One of the many things I'll miss.

Anyway, signing off until next time.

Thanks for stopping by and reading my posts.

J